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[Sep. 19th, 2008|02:15 am] |
I cant contain my excitment for october 14th :)
3 years :)
and the moment to make it so many more :) |
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[Jun. 6th, 2008|11:58 am] |
Lots of new and exciting things to look forward to
I am living ever little girls dream.....:)
Summer has been amazing
going to visit William again in a few days I hope.....
:) |
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[May. 20th, 2008|06:02 pm] |
I get to see William on Thursday :)
That is all I have been thinking about.
You know I need your love, you got that hold over me
As long as I got your love, you know that I’ll never leave
When I wanted you to share my life, I had no doubt in my mind
And it’s been you, woman, right down the line.
I know how much I lean on you, only you can see
The changes that I’ve been through have left their mark on me
You’ve been as constant as the Northern Star, the brightest light that shines
It’s been you, woman, right down the line.
I just wanna say this is my way
Of telling you everything I could never say before
Yeah this is my way of telling you that everyday I’m loving you (so much more)
‘Cause you believed in me through my darkest night
Put something better inside of me, you brought me into the light
Threw away all those crazy dreams, I put them all behind
And it was you, woman, right down the line.
I just wanna say this is my way
Of telling you everything I could never say before
Yeah this is my way of telling you that everyday I’m loving you (so much more)
If I should doubt myself, if I’m losing ground
I won’t turn to someone else, they’d only let me down
When I wanted you to share my life, I had no doubt in my mind
And it’s been you, woman, right down the line. |
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[Dec. 27th, 2007|07:32 am] |
It is the 27th today and in two days I am going to be hanging out with my best friend! We are going to go snowboarding, celebrating his birthday and mine! :)
I am turning 21, and Mo and Joe are having a huge bash in Boston for me :) Which I will spend with some of my best buds, and Will :P
I had a nice B term, in Venice ... but it will be nice to get back to school, learn some stuff, and be close to friends :)
Christmas was wonderful, dad is a lot better, and overall the family is well.
Not much to say even though a lot has happened.... just in a great mood :) |
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[Sep. 30th, 2007|02:27 am] |
Sophia has enough energy and enough friends to finally just break away
finally ..........hope
healing
new |
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[Sep. 13th, 2007|07:42 pm] |
Well my hair is brown and I cut it....
just a little change :) |
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[Sep. 10th, 2007|09:19 am] |
So things have been going well.
Will and I have been getting along pretty well... it is nice to have my best friend back :)
Been running around and playing at 4 in the morning after work and things, not always a good idea, but I cant sleep at all......
I have already logged about 21 hours for my pay check, and then plus my 20 hours for being an administrator, that is 41 logged hours :) so far that will be a nice pay check, which I will put towards paying for Venice
PQP is going well, I am not fond of one kid in my group, but it is ok....
I have my first test today, which I am a bit nervous about....
All in all things are okay
I find out about my dad today.... that has been nerve racking for me...
Kept me up all last night, luckly I had a great best friend to stay by myside all night....................
I am just trying not to think about it until Ma gives me the phone call....
All in all, I really am just trying to be a good kid. |
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[Sep. 6th, 2007|09:33 am] |
So things have been super full of stress for me, just a lot of things that I dont really want to talk about. One of which only my two best friends here at school know, and it is really killing me inside.....
I am just going on empty, there is so much work.....
i havnt had time to stop and think of all the things yet, but I am sure when I do....
Well not now anways.....
I am super tired
I am excited about tomorrow though beacuse I got paid and Jeff said he would take me shopping so I can get something nice to make me feel better.
And Will if he can will take me to the movies, but he has his preformance this weekend, which I am still trying to find out how to get tickets to :) |
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[Sep. 4th, 2007|08:57 am] |
Well... at lot has happened the last few days
great food
long boarding at night
seeing peter
the L family
snowy dog :)
lots of studying
lots of homework
no sleep
car rides
music
coney island hot dogs
work
study groups
group meetings
break down
stress
laughing
drinks
plants
hugs
kisses
best friends
new friends
old friends
jewerly
clean room
new clothes...kind of
tummy pain
ice cream shakes
showers
late nights
coffee drinking
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who knows what else |
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[Aug. 31st, 2007|12:33 am] |
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It is just time to be on my own |
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[Aug. 26th, 2007|12:41 pm] |
Last night was amazing!!!
Will made me feel a lot better after work :) He is a good friend.
Will and I hung out with the roommates for a bit and then headed over to Kevins house for jessie's 21st birthday party, that was AMAZING!
We just laughed and played and made a ton of new friends, and everyone knew us and it was the greatest feeling.
Then we went to T-sams to get food and found more friends so we talked and yelled and ate, and THEN!!!!!
When I was walking out there were these two guys playing with dice on the ground and they had dollar bills there, so I walked up and asked them what was going on and well, they tought me their game, I cant remeber what it is called but a lot of people knew it, but anyways they wanted me to play but I didnt have money so will hands me a dollar, so at two in the morning I am gambling on the side of the street.... and I won the pot!!! hahah :)
OH
and I trun over to see will talking to these random people moving a keg, and the next thing I know will is standing there with a beer in his hand :)
Oh man it was great, so then more friends showed up , it was a huge party on the street , and then we went back to Kevins house and hung out and then Will and I came home, hung out with the roommates some more and then
sleep? I am not sure
BUt I cant convey the awesomeness of the night it was amazing !!! |
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[Aug. 25th, 2007|04:17 pm] |
So my tummy pain came back , it made me think, what if I cant have kids. What if I cant........I feel like no man will ever love me if I cant. Cant pass on his genes, cant pass on mine. God I was so blessed from my paretns, my mother giving me beauty, laguage skills... man I love my language skills, my art and my music, my dad giving my math and my science, and together both gave me my sports abilites, I just feel like they would all be the perfect qualitites to pass on to my children, to bond with my children. I dont know why I am thinking of this, guess sad with the fact I might not be able to have any, and in pain as well.....
But honestly I think I am the only person that thinks of that. Like I study to be rich so that my kids can be a better step up than I am. I want them to be prettier, smarter, faster, more educated. But I want the to be free, I want them to enjoy life, learn about life, see life. Be happy beaacuse they can sit in a field and have sun shine on them, or see the undrewater world.
I suppose maybe I wont be lonely beacuse I will have my husband if I chose to marry one, but I mean I am so picky that I would want a boy with qualities the same as me or better, beacuse I want that to all add down to my kids, and as of right now.... well
I dont know
I just want to be able to have kids, I suppose physically or adoption, but this isnt something a 20 year old needs to worry about, but I do beacuse I would be the absolute best mother to my children ever......
I know I would, I am made for motherhood, as bad as that may sound, I am
I just want my kids to be everything , everything I am and more
I dont know my tummy hurts, I am upset by that...................
stupid tummy....
most likely ruin the fact of me ever getting married
who wants a great gril when she cant even pass that down to the children....
I just know that I would have the most beautiful kids ever.........
God I AM IN PAIN RIGHT NOW
and I cant find my drugs and I have to work :(
Fuck this , I hate things, I am in a bad mood
I cant have kids
I wont have a husband.... hell I cant even have a bf
and I am prob one of the best women in this world to become a wife and mother
and I doubt I will get to see that though
So much for me, I am going to be that rich lady that has everything....
but happiness
sometimes I just want to say fuck it and run away to the bahamas, who cares if I dont have the latest thing
IT isnt about money or entertianment to me
it is self fufullment, happiness in just the most simple things, the sun , the water the wind , life, none of this buying crap to make me happy
and the one thing, that would make my life full
might be the one thing
I CANT DO..................... |
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[Aug. 22nd, 2007|09:49 pm] |
College all around right now has been great. My roommates are the best people ever :) There have been a lot of crazy nights so far. I have been super busy with being the boss for snap, and getting ready for Italy :)
There have been some truths and some lies, but things are working out for the best right now :) I am having a lot of fun so that is working out well.
I am just going to get over things, and move on.
I might go to Flordia soon which is most exciting :)
Tomorrow I am going to breakfast with Will and then going to go work out.... I have a non-stop day tomrorow.........
But this weekend the roommates and I are going to the beach, I am glad we are such a close group :)
I love being at college, and I love actually going somewhere in life, and finally feel like I am learning something in school that is going to send me on my way when I get out :)
Not to mention the money hahah............
No honestly, if I can save just one life, than my life work and dedication has been all worth it..... |
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[Aug. 8th, 2007|09:32 am] |
Washington DC was nice. I got to see a lot of the monuments and things, and meet a lot of my brothers friends. I had great dinners every night of the week, which was amazing!
The highlight was of course seeing the Hope diamond. I wasnt that stunned by it's beauty, but more so the fact the reason why it is a blue diamond.... beacuse of a boron atom, which as a chemist... that is exciting to know why things are the way they are.
Saw Paul for 2 hours while I was there, that.... well just didnt work out, but I dont really mind, he wasn't my type anyways.
Right now I am packing for school and getting ready for the craft fair where I will sell my beads and things :) oh and studying Italian for Venice :) How wonderful....
I am excited about next year, I think things will go well. Things are less rocky with Will and I , and we ALWAYS have a great time at school anyways... so I think that will work out well........
He is a good kid.
Other than that, just going running and doing a lot of crunches :) I think it is important not to only have a healthy mind, but body too.... so I have been really cutting down on bad foods and have been drinking a lot more water :)
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Other than that... I am insane :) but we all knew that fact anyways, we just didnt say it outloud beacuse otherwise little men in white coats come to chase you, but as of now I have been able to out run them :)
No honestly...... when you decided to feel mean spirited again, at least have the balls to sign your name to it...................
:) |
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[Jul. 28th, 2007|09:50 am] |
It makes me laugh that you wanted to meet new
and that you keep goign back to old,
it is a bad circle :) |
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[Jul. 27th, 2007|04:34 pm] |
I went to the midnight showing of the simpsons last night.... really worth it. I went to dinner before that with chris, his ma and james. I am a bit blue lately beacuse there have been a lot of things with family und friends that seem to be getting wrong, and people are physically getting hurt.......
Other than that, I have started running everyday again which is nice. I work this weekend so I will get some cash and overall summer is well.
I am going to VA in about 4 days so I will get to see my friends again. Then I go to alabama with the parents.
And then I move in early to the dorms and I get to see my best friend Will :) and I get to start my junior year :)
eeeeeeeeee |
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[Jul. 22nd, 2007|12:24 am] |
went out to lunch today with elle, mo and josh was a nice lunch, came home and learned some bio and italian....
no caps, tired and lazy right now...
then went out t dinner with chris and his ma
we are trying to convience my ma to let me go to cali with them for 5 days
I hope she says yes:)
this is the 4th day running since I have been back, although I walk with my ma every morning and walk with my dad everynight so I get about 3times what I need....
it is good for me...
nothing else is really new, maybe going to VA to see Paul , laura, lins and my brother pretty soon...
and
ma and pa are taking chris and I to AK to go digging at the diamond minds so that should be a good time...
I need to work I am so broke after germany but oh well... |
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[Jul. 17th, 2007|07:58 am] |
What a BAMF.....
hot one at that :P
Ha ha ... I love good times.... |
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[Jul. 16th, 2007|10:15 pm] |
Hung out with Will tonight.....it was
RANDOM !!! hahah
random and wonderful.... I had a wonderful night, and I feel like leaving at that is the best :)
I really do miss my best friend like crazy....
tonight was eye opening, next year is going to be hard ....
but at least this time it is on my terms.... not sure if that is any better *wink*
Talked to Ashley tonight, she is in the same boat as I am hahaha
we will go to hell together all my best friends and I
:) |
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[Jul. 16th, 2007|08:11 am] |
Missing Germany...
Missing Paul.... talked to him last night, he is on the way to V-beach... that shithead....
Stuck in NH for a few days. |
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